Professional Christianity
What is it? It's the addiction to self righteousness and judgement. What does it mean to be Professional about your sin? It means to hide it. Professional Chrisitanity means you have a reputation to maintain at all cost, even if that cost is dishonesty. You want to go back to being an amateur, but you're too experienced for that. You have to search to find your sin. You have hidden your sin so well for so long you have to search to discover where you put it. [from the book Confessions of a Caffienated Christian by John Fischer]
I believe this to be a big problem among church leadership. The underlying pressure to "always have it together" and the unwritten code of "you better not mess up, the cost is too great" feeds this need to hide sin. But, "We encourage our leaders to be real people and honest about their struggles", you say. Well, I hate to tell you this, but, Christians are sometimes the FIRST to shoot their wounded. Somehow we get it backwards and protect the 99 while abandoning the 1. We know we are hypocrites. We just like to only admit the hypocrisy that's acceptable to us. The longer we hide our sin the more numb we become to it taking place in our life and it's effect on us and those around us. Further fueling pride and the addiction to self-righteousness and judgement. And all the while Satan is strengthening his grip around our life and taking us deeper and deeper into bondage and further into sin. We must confess our sin, bring it into the open, ["confess your sins, ONE TO ANOTHER"....not just to God in your head] and into the light where God can heal it and bring restoration. The consequences may be great but there are consequences to sin unconfessed or not. Amen? "...You may be sure that your sin will find you out", Numbers 32:23. Bringing our sin into the light allows God to heal it and free us from Satan's grip. And the life experienced on the other side (not hiding, ignoring, denying, lying, or pretending everything is fine) after confessing our sin, is SO MUCH greater than that spent in the tormoil and bondage of hiding and lying about it and "playing church." Don't we want Christian leaders who are willing to stand up and confess their sin, be real about their humanity, and allow God to heal them in front of us and not just talk about it? Aren't these the kind of people that we want to follow, we can relate to best, and admire most for having courage and integrity?? Unfortunately, giving grace is more complicated for us than that. It seems to me that our congregations understand what it is to "be the church" more than the leadership does. Example: The body gives grace to the body....The body gives grace to the leadership....The leadership gives grace to the body....BUT the leadership doesn't give grace to other leadership. Therefore releasing and hurting a lot of good leaders when they could have chosen (at very least) to give them grace and restore them.
For a long time I equated being a Christian with being good. That meant as a Christian leader I not only had to be good. I had to be better. Now I realize being good is the least important thing about being a Chrisitian. I'm a Christian because I'm NOT GOOD. I'm a Christian because I found out the fantastic news that God loves me anyway. [same book]
thank you for blogging this...for blogging the not-so-easy things...for blogging the truth.
Posted by: lola | May 08, 2007 at 09:12 PM
A while ago you and I traded some e-mails about this topic, and you offered to pray for me. Those prayers were powerful in my life, and I'm praying for you, too. Thanks for posting again, and for being real.
Posted by: steadyrock | May 08, 2007 at 10:06 PM
perfectly said....i really miss you.
Posted by: Donna | May 08, 2007 at 10:39 PM
Great post - I have lived on both sides. The side of integrity, confession, and authenticity is so much better. I cannot bear the weight of my sin - so hiding it from everyone (and thinking I am hiding it from God) is the stupidest thing I can do. It rots my soul.
I have been at that place and wish no longer to return.
Posted by: Pat Callahan | May 09, 2007 at 08:50 AM
Thanks for posting this. I enjoy times like these; learning from you, relating with you, and being real to myself. Thanks for being Church for so many of us. Our families prayers always include you and the family.
Posted by: joly | May 09, 2007 at 08:52 AM
amazing.
Posted by: anne jackson | May 09, 2007 at 05:07 PM
so true.
Posted by: Dusty | May 09, 2007 at 07:12 PM
Now THAT'S church. Claude would encourage us to stop for a moment and take up an offering! :)
Seriously, I like doing life together....learning, laughing, living....being real with one another and with God is a good thing.
Posted by: Debra | May 09, 2007 at 08:14 PM
Hey Justin,
I'd love to be in touch - can you drop me an email as I don't have a current email address for you.
Feeling it with you bro.
Posted by: Mark Jaffrey | May 09, 2007 at 11:58 PM
Yup. This is so right on. I think that I need to find that book.
Posted by: Kristiapplesauce | May 10, 2007 at 01:31 AM
Welcome back. Wherever you have been, it seems like it has been a good place. Hope you keep realizing how bad the church is playing these days and keep helping us fix it.
Man that post was right on.
Thanks.
Los
Posted by: Los | May 10, 2007 at 01:46 AM
amen
Posted by: Christina Hurt | May 11, 2007 at 07:10 AM
Right on the money. I can't wait to get my hands on that book. Thanks Justin. That is the truth everywhere...even in Arkansas!!!!
Posted by: Richard | May 11, 2007 at 09:52 AM
Hi Justin - those words hit home. Keep preachin' it!
Wherever you are, praying for you & your family.
I think the church has pulled together since you've been gone, but it was sure great when you were there. You are missed by many. Take care.
Posted by: Jesus loves me | May 14, 2007 at 01:25 PM
Hear, hear. You said it brother! Peace.
Posted by: Steve | May 15, 2007 at 10:45 PM